DIVYATA

सुनसान राहें, अनजाने रास्ते, अजूबे मुसाफिर एक अनसुना शोर, एक अनदेखा सफ़र। अजीब कश-म -कश, अजीब बेचैनी, कभी ऐसा लगता है, जैसे सपना देख रही हूँ.… क्या सपना ही है? कब शुरू हुआ? कुछ पता नहीं इस सपने में कुछ पाना चाहते हैं हम पैसा चाहिए, गाडी चाहिए, बंगला चाहिए ज़मीन चाहिए। बहुत सुख चहिये। सारे लोग ऐसे चाहिए जो हमें प्यार करते हों सारे पल आराम के चाहिये। बहुत सारा सम्मान चाहिए बहुत अपनापन चाहिए शांत सपना अच्छा लगता है जैसे शांत नीले आसमान के तले लेटी  हूँ मैं हरी मखमली घास पर जैसे मेरा दिमाग भी उतना ही शांत है जितना कि  ऊपर आसमान  जैसे मेरा मन उतना ही खुश है जितना रंग बिरंगे फूलों के ऊपर उड़ने वाली तितलियाँ जैसे अब सब कुछ पा लिया अब ये भी मन नहीं है कि ये सपना टूटे लेकिन सपने तो सपने होते हैं. पाने के लिए और खोने के लिए उनमे कुछ भी नहीं होता पर फिर भी दिल और दिमाग की सारी भावनाएं जुडी होती हैं उनसे. सपना टूट जाए तो कुछ नहीं होगा हम फिर भी रहेंगे ये तसल्ली देती हूँ खुद को और सपना टूट जाता है। करवट बदलती हूँ और फिर...

Hi, So,.... again I m back.......and sitting here :) right in front of u.. Talking about my self. My past, my present and my plannings for future......         Last time, when I had written a post, I was mentaly entangled in imaginary situations and after some days I really got entangled in  the web of a painful disease. I got recurring boils on my inner thigh. They gradually grew so big and painful that I was unable to sit or walk and so I took leaves from office. As a last option, I called my mom and asked her to come to Delhi . It took one whole month to completely get rid of that bloody disease. Mom, as always served me with love and compassion like an angel.....:) Our troubles/diseases, are the best time to analyse the truth of all of our relations, friendships and other things.         After getting rid of that disease, I again started going to office. Then, since mom was with me, I didn't get much time to write something on blo...

Sometimes I find myself entangled and puzzled by the life's situations and circumstances that I am bound to face. Yes, the above picture shows the state of my mind which I feel sometimes. Don't know where the solution is and how to get it. Perhaps everything is fine now, I have now got transferred to some other office on my own wish. I could get rid of all dirty people and circumstances that I had tolerated there. Here the staff members and boss are all good. There is a big and very beautiful liberary in my office building so that I can read any book of my desire any time. Every facility is available at this new office but still I find myself entrapped in some strange circumstances. I sometimes ponder about my past and future. Everything seems blurred, like I want to replace my struggling past with a simple way that lead to my highest goal. Perhaps, sometimes I think that I could not achieve both of my aims, neither the worldly desire nor the spiritual one. I want to reach...

      Writing a post about a trip........ after a very long time......:) In fact, I was also trying to get rid of this boring routine of home-office-home-office. So it was nice to get an opportunity to travel to a nice place.       Being a government employee, like others, I also watch calender every year for the leaves that are near weekends so that by taking less leaves I can make a full week off to go to home. I saw that  after Saturday(12th April) and Sunday(13th), this Monday was also a gazetted holiday for Ambedkar jayanti. Then, Friday was also holiday (Good Friday). So by taking three day leaves (of Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday) I could enjoy the whole week full of leaves. Thus I took leaves from office and went to Haldwani on 12th April. Before going haldwani, Mausi and I had decided to go for a trip to Amritsar. Actually one day, I was watching a program on Discovery channel based on golden temple and for the very first time I got to kn...

Writing a post after a long time....though no special reason...but to continue the sequence of posts in my blog..... So, what to write????  Let me start my talks with the movies I have seen recently. "Queen" of Kangana Ranaut and "Highway" of Alia Bhatt. Both movies start with the preparation of marriage of Heroines and consequently some mishappening with both of them, then both of them go for a long journey from where they finally realise real meaning of their life/self. The long journey/change of place/interaction with the new people/abode in this beautiful nature transforms the lives of both heroines and provides boost in their confidences and they feel inner satisfaction. Both Kangana and Alia bhatt are looking very innocent and beautiful in their respective movies. Let me now come to my own life, though people suggest me to not become so personal in a common-to-all blog, but still since its a medium of communication and for me, communication is "to l...