DIVYATA

काफी समय हो गया कोई नया पोस्ट लिखे हुए..तो सोचा आज कुछ लिख ही लूं. वैसे काफी बातें होती हैं लिखने को.......और ज़िन्दगी में कई ऐसे moments आते हैं कि उस समय मन करता है ब्लॉग लिखने का.कई अनुभव इतने अच्छे होते  हैं कि उनको हमेशा के लिए सहेजने का मन करता है. उन पलों को हम बार बार जी तो नहीं सकते , लेकिन कम से कम अपना ब्लॉग पढ़ कर दोबारा उन पलों को याद करके मन से तो कुछ पलों के लिए उन बीती हुयी बातों में खो ही सकते हैं.  दूसरा तब भी, जब कोई कडुआ अनुभव होता है.......ऑफिस में या कहीं भी....जब गुस्सा तो बहुत आता है पर मुंह से बोलकर अपना गुस्सा निकाल नहीं पाती...तो मन करता है कि ब्लॉग पर ही लिख लूं. और तब...

Uttarakhand.......Nainital....Almora......all the hill stations are...wooooow....... I have been brought up in the lap of this beautiful nature and have passed my childhood days playing in the serpentine lanes situated at the Mountains of Kumaun. Though, in my childhood days, I used to get irritated of evergreen-cool temperature of those hilly areas because of frequent diseases caused by cold, but now I realize the importance of those places. First of all, getting leisure time, second, getting company of family members and third getting again that cool-cool atmosphere, which reminds me of my childhood days.........the fresh, cool, natural air that is of course free of cost and cannot be compared with the artificial air of the air-conditioners, all these are rare moments. I got such a good chance of visiting Almora this time. Actually, Bhaiya came to my home at Delhi before this Dusshera festival and we both planned to go Home (Haldwani) together. So, ...

ऐ खुदा, इस दिमाग का ऐसा हाल क्यूँ है? समस्याओं का हर तरफ बिछा सा जाल क्यूँ है? कभी लगता हैकि पैर धंस गए है दलदल में? निकल जाने को मन बेहाल क्यूँ है? पता है, ज़िन्दगी संघर्षों की धूप में दौड़े गए पलों का नाम है..... जीतता वही, जिसकी एक दिशा है, उस दिशा में बिना रुके दौड़ना ही जिसका काम है.... पर सोचती हूँ कि मुझे दौड़ में ये थकान क्यूँ है आसमान की ओर ताकता मन परेशान क्यूँ है... क्या धूप में बादलों की तलाश है? या किसी घनी ठंडी छाँव की तलाश है? या बहुत दौड़ चुकी हूँ तो अब लगी प्यास है... पर छाँव न मिलने पर ये दिल परेशान क्यूँ है.... मोह माया के बंधनों में उलझता कमबख्त नादान क्यूँ है? गर छाँव मिल जाए, तो सुस्ताने लगोगे... लक्ष्य को भूलकर मस्ताने लगोगे.... शायद यही उस खुदा का जवाब होगा... बन्दे ! तू दौड़ते ही जा, इसी से कामयाब होगा ।

'चक्र-व्यूह' ये शब्द मैंने बचपन में पढ़ा था। वो दिन, जब मैं चैन से बैठ कर गीता प्रेस गोरखपुर की महाभारत पढ़ा करती थी। बड़े अच्छे दिन थे वो। छुट्टियाँ होती थी स्कूल की.......और मैं महाभारत लेकर बैठ जाती थी......दिन भर उन कहानियों को पढने में मज़ा आता था। अब चाहकर भी वो दिन नहीं आ सकते। समय बहुत बड़ी चीज़ है.... फिलहाल चक्र-व्यूह का ध्यान मुझे कैसे आया?? ध्यान ही नहीं आया बल्कि आजकल अनुभव होता है कि मैं चक्र-व्यूह में फंसी हुई हूँ। निहत्था अभिमन्यु और उसको घेरे सात महारथी। उसकी जान लेने को आतुर। जब से यहाँ नौकरी ज्वाइन की है.......हर दिन हर पल काम का बोझ बढ़ता जा रहा है........कौन कहता है कि सरकारी सेवाओं में काम नहीं होता? ' नौकरशाही' बहुत बुरी चीज़ है। सुबह सोकर उठने से से ही काम कि चिंता शुरू हो जाती है....जो कि ऑफिस पहुँचने के साथ साथ दिमाग पर हावी होने लगती है। लगता है जैसे दिमाग में कुछ उबल रहा है। फाइलों का ढेर और कागजों के बण्डल हर रोज़ की माथापच्ची, urgent कागजों का ढेर जो कि सर पर तलवार की तरह लटकते हैं, उसके अलावा दूसरे papers जिनपर सोच-विचार कर लम्बा चौड़ा केस बन...

Sometimes I feel like I m loosing something.................I know that I should be optimistic all the time but there is a difference between what should be and what, in reality is. Like, there should be peace everywhere,every one should be happy, everyone should be satisfied..............no complains, no sadness, no conspiracies, no jealousy, no diseases, no misunderstandings, no dictatorship should be there. I earnestly want this. But in reality, I don't know when this ideal situation in this world will come. Practically I crave for all these desired things but am left with a type of restlessness. I feel like the inner peace is lost. Not exactly lost because the means of a lost thing is the thing which was earlier there with us and now missing. But peace is the thing which my heart and soul craves for long but finds itself unable to get it completely. Even in childhood, I remember I used to lay down on the bed near my window and stare at a very old tree that was in front of this ...

Now, that I am leading my life alone......I miss my days spent with Mummy-Papa.............specially as 'Navratre' are going on these days.............I again and again remember the days when I was a kid. Papa- reading Durga saptshati and Navrarti katha during those nine days........ Arti and shankh-naad at Home making the home atmosphere pious and auspicious. Going temple with Mummy................. Having Delicious vrat-wala dinner cooked by mummy........in all nine days............. Now that time can't come back.....but the navratre-season always reminds me of the past days......... I can still smell that holy-atmosphere of home through my thoughts. I can still smell that Navratri pooja on the ninth day by Pandit ji  which had a nice and holy smell of 'hawan'. I can still see those 9-small girls coming to our home on the ninth day................and uttering innocent things in their sweet voices. Mummy doing their tilak &...

Life and time are strange things in the world and the most surprising thing is the human nature/mind. I feel it very difficult to find the logic of these three things. Life has different colours with different phases........................I remember, there was a time when I had so much of time to study but couldn't study because I didn't have the sufficient money so I used to think that once I get the job i'll collect money for so many books, coaching for the higher exams. but now, I have job and ofcourse money to spend but no time to read books or go for coaching. That time I used to feel suffocation in the lack of resources and now I feel suffocation in the lack of time. However I know that people who achieve something in life, are the people who know how to manage their time. They make the best utilization of it even if they have much lesser time in comparison of me. These all things are the states of human mind. Mind is the only thing which tak...

It was Sunday today.......my mom who had recently visited to me,  had to go back today but before returning Haldwani, she asked me to accompany her to our Sant shri asaram ji ashram, karolbgh. She wanted to go there for some ashram and sewa related work. Since I had not visited our ashram for long so I also decided to go there with mummy. So........no need to be mentioned that whole day experience was great.  As Mummy's train timing was from 4 pm so we left ashram at 2pm. after that, we took metro for Rajiv chowk the junction connecting many metro routes and reaching that station, mom took metro for her railway station and I took metro for my home. After coming home I opened Internet on my laptop and engaged myself in surfing net. Getting bored of net I listened to some songs which I am liking these days like dil to bachcha hai ji and hey shona.....after that I listened some satsangs of bapuji then I had dinner, then took newspapers and quickly read them.............. l...

There is a hue and cry on corruption in India these days.No one is leaving a chance to curse political leaders for the current situation of corruption. Now, its obvious that opposition party will make it an agenda and blame ruling party for prevailing corruption........ But, what about a common man of India? Common man has been cursing political leaders for corruption for long..... But, these days, such voices against corruption have become strong...........many messages on mobile and mails in inbox are being sent to each other to spread to all of the Indians that lacs/ crores/ millian dollers have been deposited by MLAs or MPs in foreign banks as black money...............when we all sit in a group, and talk about these topics, we forget about our own work in offices........even a dishonest clerk of an office himself criticizes Indian political leaders for making so much of money.           Sometimes I think about the root cause of corruption.......how it ...

I remember, I used to think,'Why people say that the life of Delhi is a fast life?' I used to think many times and had argued many people that the people in metros and the people in towns are doing similar things then why all say that the life in Delhi is a fast life. Well, now I, myself am leading a fast life in Delhi and wondering how fast the time goes here. Why am I not getting the time even for myself?.....Now it's been 5 months since I had joined my new job and settled in delhi, but still struggling for a few hours for my own....... Getting up in the morning.....my daily pooja.......cooking breakfast and lunch for office.......getting ready for office.........running to catch the bus........getting down on bus-stop nearest to my office........again running to my office building.......if got late, then prepare myself to listen to some instructions from boss that I am a fresher so at least I should come on time........doing work in office....lunch time-having lunch ...